Ahhh, a new semester, a fresh start. This semester actually started better than I ever could have imagined. And how is it that I always end up drinking at the Teke house? Not that I'm complaining. I love being there. I love the atmosphere, the company. If I were a dude, which I am not, I would rush Teke. I think I need a penis. Yes, that's right, a penis of my own. I'll work on this one.

In other news, I have decided that SoCo does not go down like candy, contrary to what I was told by a certain someone. It's more like ... rubbing alcohol. As a matter of fact, there are quite a few things that go down like rubbing alcohol, 100 proof vodka being one of them. Remember that one time me and Amanda drank Phil's vodka? Oh man, yes I do. That wasn't make out night, it was almost fighting the DJ and dancing close with Amanda night. Alcohol really is the ultimate social lubrication tool. However, I must stress that it should not be used as a personal lubricant. I imagine it wouldn't feel too good on the man bits. Or the lady bits, for that matter. Owie.

In other other news, futons are not comfortable. Well, the Teke futon is not comfortable. This one time, I spend the night at my friend's apartment and slept on his futon, and it was pretty cozy. At any rate, the only thing that made the Teke futon tolerable was the person I was with. This wonderful, amazing guy, in whose arms I feel perfectly content. I'm not sure if I've ever quite felt this way about someone. I've always rushed into things, gone in headfirst and fallen head over heels. This time's different. We were friends last semester, to the point towards December that I would have done anything for him, been anywhere for him. But now, things have changed. It's so much more than that now. It's a bond that I feel more than fortunate to share with someone. A real, genuine closeness that overrides any sort of physical intimacy we might share. I don't know what's going to happen yet, but I like where we are now. Even if we are perpetually stuck in some sort of limbo between a great friendship and a relationship, I think I'll be perfectly happy. I like this. Whatever this is. He already means the world to me.

They say you hurt the ones you love the most. This is the truest thing I have ever heard, especially in my family. Subsequently, I will be shutting off my emotions for the night and maintaining radio silence until further notice. Goodnight.